Hello ! I plan to use this blog as an online diary of my raw recovery as i have tried doing it on my own , keeping a personal diary and pretending i can still eat cooked food and be healthy. I have tried to go raw about five times and been unsuccesful each time but it has got to the point where i see no other way ! I woke up this morning feeling like crap because i had eaten a mc donalds on the way home , my nose was bloked my chest hurt and i felt depressed ! I'm only 21 and im sure this is not how im meant to feel ! I weighed myself this morning and i was 15 stones im only 5'7 so this is BAD. I am also going to use this blog to vent my frustrations as people are ALWAYS commenting on my weight and the things i eat ! Today for example i was eating corrots and my uncle said do you want an apple pie ... no ? some chicken ? etc then started laughing and turned to the person next to him and said she can never keep these things up ! which going on my past history is true but that is because i did not realise WHY i was eating these foods (for comfort ,i have issues with rejection blah blah blah) and more importantly i did not take on board that I NEED to change as over eating is very destructive! Anyway Today i have eaten 2 plums, a pear, a banana, a peach , some carrots, a salad , some berries and im gonna have a spinach smoothie when i get in (sounds rank but taste nice as it has a banana and some nuts in (it's one of angela's recipies ))

Martyna x