Hello well its my first day of abstinance but i met some really supportive people yesterday at a new oa meeting and they are helping me with encouraging texts etc so i feel like i can do thisand im not alone ! Today i have had raw muesli for breakfast, i am having cooked salmon , potatoe and carrot for lunch and will pick up a salad couscous type thing before my gig . Im feelin positive if not a bit hungry (probably just in my mind though). Will probably drink about ten herbal teas today but at least im not bingeing and compulsivly overeateing ! speak tomorrow xx
Hello , so yesterday i had a chiken salad for dinner before my gig it cost me £11.24, what a joke i could have made that chicken salad everyday for a week for the same money ! So today the cravings are BAD I really want to go and binge but i have figured out that if i just stay in the office until five i can stay clean ! Today i have eaten porridge made with almond milk with some chopped up apple and cinnimon (sounds nice but i did not add any sweetner so it could have tasted better) , for lunch i am having lentil soup and for dinner im having trout with potatoes and greens beans. I know i need to stay abstinent but right now the food is calling me sooo loudly! I feel like by being abstinent yesterday i planted a little seed so now i have to help it grow ! I am finding the friends i have made at oa so helpful yesterday someone said to me that thinking about breaking is not breaking itself and the longer you just keep thinking about it but not doing it the less you will think about it . Which kind of made me laugh as i thought about how long i have been thinking about eating healthily and losing weight but overeating and bingeing on crap! Anyway will speak tomorrow xx
Hey seoulkiwi , I am glad to be back too ! Im glad to see that i hadnt been chucked off lol! If you have facebook or msn then maybe we could talk more on that . Generally im just trying to be more aware of raw food and include it in my diet though as i have learnt i can not just be 100% raw overnight , also as i am a compulsive overeater i need to address many other issue first.
Hello sorry had such a hard day yesterday trying not to binge i did not feel up to writing but i made it !!!! Yesterday i had raw muesli, salmon with veg and potatoes and chicken breast with sugar snaps and potatoes . I ahd my dinner with a friend i met at oa which was lovely ! I am getting so much support from oa its amazing! Today i have had porridge made with almond milk , some honey and some chopped up apple and plan to have some tomatoe and basil soup for lunch and salmon and courgette with brown rice for dinner. Eating three times a day is simple but not easy ! I think i really need to get to grips with not bingeing and over eating before i can contemplte going raw but as i said i will still be aware of the benefits of raw food. Even after just a few days of being abstinent i feel better equipt to deal with negativity ! Sorry i have rambled alot speak on monday! P.s i hid my scales today well obviously i know where they are but they are hard to get to so hopefully i will be less tempted i plan to weight myself after three months of abstinance (very long p.s lol) xxx
Hey have not felt like posting of late but am feeling a bit weird at the moment oa is changing my life so so much that it is very overwhelming. It is the most honest thing i have ever done and has brought me closer to god which is at once scary and incredibly comforting. I have been raw abstinent for six days in ten minutes , but the amazing thing is i have not done it i have just relaxed and let god work through me . Saying that it has still been a hard week ! I am so grateful for vitaorganic central london for having such a lovely raw menu it has saved my life several times this week ! I am weighing myself once a month which is much harder than i thought ! I t is weird but after two days i was like lemme at the scales so i can see if im a better person yet ! Which i know is fucked up so i am just gonna wait till its time ! This message is not very well put together but its because if feel strange i can feel myself transitioning and its very scary alot of good things and feelings are happening to me and im not sure how to deal with them ! anyway gonna reflect on my day and go to bed ! martyna xx
